~*~So its been awhile,and its now a new year.yay!:)the holidays went by quickly,and yet again we got the stomach bug.2 yrs in a row now!lets hope this doesnt become a tradition,i'm not really looking forward to Christmas now:)plus the day after Christmas Zac,Hunter and i spent the day at the ER.why you may ask?....because their room was so full and messy with new toys,etc...that he slipped and fell,then hit his head on the metal bunkbeds!oww!:(poor boy,but he was really brave and tough:)
As for new years resolutions.hmm....No stomach flu!!!no ER visits,lol....and....should probably lose weight,but really everyone says that every year.so i'm not really counting it.my new years resolution is to get my house decluttered(ha ha,funny joke i know,lol:),get back into sewing(my true passion,its like i just go into my own world,and everything just disappears:),play with my kiddos more(my precious lil monstersi honestly couldnt live without all of them!they are my Joy),read my Bible more,(really everyone could do this more:)take out more time for "me"(mom's need breaks to re-fuel,and i'm running on empty)..and no i dont count ER visits,running into the store for a sec,or naptimes as a break,lol:)
plus,MY HUSBAND AND I NEED MORE TIME!its weird to me how it seems some people have all the luck with babysitters,family....we get occasional breaks,but not alot compared to some people i know.it makes my husband and i sad.we wonder why?whats wrong with us(or our children?)yes we do have 4 kiddos,but in reality they are really well behaved,we get annoyed,but its because we dont get breaks as nearly as we need to.while some people i know abuse the situation they have,and "Use" people/family.maybe this is just me?....maybe its an issue i have?who knows,and sorry for rambling!lol..i'll get over it:)but on that note another resolution i have is to stand up for myself!i let people walk all over me..and i'm done!i'm not going to be purposely mean,but i cant be "Naomi.the one who is nice and always say yes,etc".i've befriended people in the past and they have abused my easy-going,"its all chill",no problem attitude.it's really amazing to me the way people(friends,spouses,family) treat each other!!it blows my mind,and makes my heart ache,and makes me actually down right furious..i have situations in my life where i'm sitting by watching it happen right now!today!and why am i so upset?i cant do anything?at least i think i cant..its not my place..but how i wish i could just shake some people!..and be like "Cant you see?!cant you see?you're not "you" anymore,they're smothering,controling and breaking your spirit,the spirit that makes you,You!while we sit by and cry,cry because we miss "You",the "real,old,happy,carefree,funny,special,You"...wow!sorry about all this ranting..if you're stiill with me and reading this..i guess i needed to vent and get this off my chest.Whew!,now on to this new year with a clear mind,and an attitude of clearness,and inspiration to start anew!:)if i've offended anyone sorry for that,but i'm not sorry for what i wrote,its truelly how i feel.and this is my new year of being me,the "strong,brave,inspired,creative,happy,loving,woman i'm meant to be".~*~
~*~i hope to blog a lil more this year also.i'm guessing that its theraputic,lol.i feel better!:)anyways till next time,happy 2009,hope its filled with happiness,health,comfort,peace,and most of all His Joy!:)~*~
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3 comments:
We all need to vent sometimes! It does make one feel better :-)
Hey, we'd be happy to make sure you guys get more nights out. As long as nobody's sick we'd love to babysit for you. At your house even :-)
Love ya...
Hey there,
I enjoyed your rant/vent. It was good. You know that Em and I are up for watching your kids. just let us know :)
I just read your blog for the first time. I love it! Very theraputic. Hey, you just had two volunteers to babysit. Take advantage, no more excuses. Just a little planning for a couple of hours with your sweetie. Or with your mother-in-law if you'd rather. ( :
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